A blog in blocks

Because Nate and I are so cool we let the girls stay up last night for the New Years festivities. These fabulous festivities included a cozy night snuggled on the couch with a couple of books and then at 10 a date with New York and the big ole' ball drop.  Charly was super excited when I said she could stay up but I knew none of us would even make it to midnight...the past nine years Nate and I have been together I do believe we have had maybe 2 years we actually rang it in at 12 o'clock. 

....so Happy New Year, from the family who is way to awesome to stay up late. We fell asleep at about a quarter to midnight.... *sigh* maybe next year. 

Usually throughout the day exciting things things will happen and I will say, oh this will be perfect for our blog.....but lately those thoughts come and go before I get a chance to sit at the computer to blog. Between keeping Piper out of Winnie's face while she is sleeping and keeping Piper from holding Winnie it is rather difficult to be at the computer for longer spurts of time. My blogging lately has been in sections. First, edit pictures. Next, post pictures in a blank post. Last, find ten minutes to remember all the great things that happened the past few days and try as hard as I can to write them quickly while Winnie is sleeping on the couch and Piper hasn't noticed the fact that she hasn't touched Winnie in five minutes and is playing in a different room (biggest run-on sentence ever!)

So here I am, at that place(above), only for the time being Winnie is attached to me and Piper is occupied by her new Ken doll.  Nate is running errands, Charly is playing quietly as well, only she gets it. Charly understands that we need to let little W sleep so her body can grow and she gives her space. I do believe Piper is blocking out my voice every time I ask her mostly gently and sometimes strongly to let Winnie sleep.

Obviously Piper's love and attachment to Winnie is adorable and tender it can be a bit annoying (eek, can't believe I just used that word) at times when I want to get things done. Although third time around I'm not so worried about the little things around the house getting done because I totally get how fast this time goes by and Nate and I both want to embrace it while we can. It won't be long before those wrinkly legs and tiny baby butt are filled with fat and crawling around.

Meanwhile in other Campbell news.....Below is Charly minus about a foot of hair. This was right after her cut. 

I wanted to get some cute shots of both the girls and Winnie with their cute new dos but we have been milking colds, earaches and all that comes with those lovely things the past few days since getting home.  Just when we thought things were getting better for Charly she woke up early morning on Thursday with a bad earache which we took care of with garlic/mullein oil. Seriously anyone with kids should always have this in their pantry, so many times we have used this and it is crazy how fast it works! Obviously it is a wonderful alternative to antibiotics for ear problems.

 

So for now(written five hours later...see above for why, LOL) we will take care of these stinkin' colds the girls have, enjoy lots of baths and try to be nicer in the new year.

This day has not been the best, I think it has been a combination of bad attitudes from not feeling good and tired bodies from staying up last night. None the less it was not our best. We wrapped up the night at the dinner table after saying our rose and thorn (thank you Mr. Obama), then Charly starts trying to tell me something....this is what she said....and then bursts into tears before finishing....

"Mom...I know you say you love me......................but sometimes it doesn't feel like it"

Ouch! Broken heart, hugs and some much needed cuddling later I have to say this has been my least favorite mommy moment EVER! If ever I have felt like a failure as a mom it was today. While one part of me is glad Charly felt like she could tell me such truth, the other part of me is heart broken for her even considering me not loving her. What a terrible feeling for a little girl to have. I'm not sure why I am even sharing this with you, my readers, perhaps I need a virtual hug or maybe even someone to tell me that at one point in life a daughter will say that to her mother? Anyone? 

*sigh* 

Tomorrow will be better and I hope to never have that sentence felt by any of our girls....ever again.

BTW Piper's rose was Winnie, she makes her happy. Piper telling us this was mine and Nate's rose.